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touche

last nite.... i witnessed what is 'generousity'.

i don't mean that he is so willing to share the girl he is intrested in.
but, he openly accepts who his competitor is, and yet, doesn't slay his name.
he graciously acknowledges his opponent's strong and weak points.
he tries to enter his competitor's psyche and figure his thoughts.
he tries to analyse his opponent's mind.

*but is there a competitor in the 1st place? or to that other guy, tis girl is jus a another pawn in the game of love?*

to me.... what he did was not just courageous,
after making known his intentions to the girl.
but to accept your rival in love... takes a lot more grace and effort.
instead of taking a step back and withdrawing from the courting of the maiden,
he steps forward to take a bow and draw his sword, to spar with skills and understanding.

i am indeed very impressed.

if it were to me, i wondeer how i will take it.
maybe just die of jealousy???
i can accept my darling going out with other girls, clubbing with other girls,
BUT..... just inform me about it. don't let me find out. i trust him though.
i don't like competition in love. if he is yours, he will be. so don't play bitch.
i don't enjoy seeing the guy i like dating someone else. i wil go sour in the face.
i don't like to choose among guys. it's a hard choice.
i prefer juggling my oranges in mid air, watch the world pass by.
i don't like to see guys choose among girls too. often, it is jus one. focus.
i don't seek for attention, but i don't like my boyfriend to neglect/ignore me.
i like to be.... pampered and loved, but not be obsessively possessed by someone.

relationships... i'm very sceptical about them.
when u've been through alot of nonsense, u just wanna sit back relax and say "whatever".

last nite was quite ok.
sit at a void deck at holland village.... perspiring away in the mid summer's nite.
take sips of ice-cold beer made of champagne yeast. sweet stuff.
chat with Benny and shared alot of personal past....
age 26 so he's been through toughies too. *unlike Jared... stil can afford to play*
the product designs he did for Dulux paint was really creative!!! cheers to his career!!
i do hope the comsumers get the message sent across though...

while i lay in bed, i reminisce upon the enjoyable times i had tis holidays.....
alone with Benson. just the both of us. sometimes with the pol sci gang.
have prata dinner at Fong Seng after last paper, chill out at 6th Ave Coffee Bean,
chat on phone just before we sleep, walk along Orchard boulevard.
sometimes... silence is golden. just cherish the company. let time stand still.
sometimes... put one's strong pride down, and everything ahead will be clearer.

posted by Veen @ 21:14